Mr. Creepy Stalker Guy

Salutations to the intergalactic space aliens from out of this world and our own humanity universally known as the world itself,

       I watched Transformers: Dark of the Moon recently (recently meaning about a month ago). But besides that, I have to say I'm a huge fan of their soundtrack which I was listening to just moments ago. The movie was great. At the beginning of the movie as I was watching it I was very confused and thought it was moving very slowly, but as the movie progressed and expecially at the very end, I thought, "Dang this is so tight!" Long story short, I decided that when I grow up I will be Sam.
       However, today I went to the 2 dollar theater to see X-Men First Class. It was great! (And most of the actors were from my Celebrity HOT! list!) The whole night before, after I planned to go with my friend to the movies the next day, for some odd reason, I was thinking about Mr. Creepy Stalker Guy randomly showing up and scaring the crap out of me. He's the guy from my school that I told you about. Well, turns out I had nothing to worry about--until later that night... -insert dramatic tension-

       He showed up at my soccer practice! I couldn't believe it! I hadn't seen him since the last day of school, and didn't expect to even though I was freaking myself out about the possibility of seeing him over the summer (which was less than a 0% chance so I thought).
       There I was, picking up soccer balls at the end of practice and he was sitting on the side of the hill. I could feel his head shifting in my direction. The worst part was knowing that he didn't know which soccer team I played for, let alone when and where we practiced. Talk about run for your life! Now I'm even more nervous to see him on the first day of 11th grade! Lucky for me, he left before we had the chance to approach each other. That was scary too because he literally disappeared in the blink of an eye. It made me wonder if I was just dillusional, but I know I didn't drink any hot chocolate (I swear!) so I'm good. I'm scared for my life! Is he going to hurt me or am I just that interesting to be around/stare at at all times? Either way, I have an ultimate mission to avoid him.
       Dear Mr. Creepy Stalker Guy,
                     What do you want from me?!

       Watch out! He's got eyes like laser beams and a touch like frost bite. He'll be stalking you on facebook through the end of the night. He's Mr. Creepy Stalker Guy, and he's going to be here everyday for the next 2 years...

Here's what you'll need for school:
P.S. "The best way to deal with a stalker is by stalking him/her yourself" - Me
1. Mirror spy glasses
2. A boyfriend (or at least an imaginary one ;) hehe)
3. An escape route
4. A buddy to accompany you at all times
5. A cell phone for emergency purposes
6. A reason why you can't give him your phone number/go on a date with him
7. A trench coat just to look cool
8. Music
9. A video camera
10. A vicious police guard dog
11. A wig
12. Binoculars (enjoy using these at school assemblies to keep an eye on MCSG (Mr. Creepy Stalker Guy))
13. Walkie talkies
14. An air horn
15. Silly string (my most prized weapon of mass destruction)

       Now you will be set to avoid any mysterious activity from your creepy spytech starstruck large-pupiled freaky mind-boggling unavoidable stalkenemy... if you could only throw him out of your very own mind... -throws imaginary image of MCSG into an imaginary trash can- Wouldn't it be so much easier to just own Bumblebee from Transformers to protect you from MCSG at all times? Or to have a mutant body gaurd from X-Men?

- Sydney (hereby applying for an alien protector)

RANDOM QUOTE: "If I know I have everything prepared for when I get killed by a stalker, then I can go to sleep."

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Day... I Mean End to a Week Gone Bad

Good evening world,

Today I was volunteering all day, working at a concessions stand to help out and make money for the football team. Boy was today just another hassle to my already awful week. Just yesterday I had gotten into a fight with my parents that was really all a misunderstanding, but since no one could stop yelling random crap and “Go to your room,” so that nobody could explain their side of the story, it lasted a lot longer than it should have and was much more painful. But that was settled. Anyways, today I first arrived to help out and see all of the other workers and a few football players there. I’d be lying to say that my first thought wasn’t, “DANG, these boys aren’t even cute.” I know, I know, I’m such a girl. But I was looking forward to some conversation! Shocking coming from me, eh? Turns out these boys were the shyest football players you’d ever meet. They hardly said a word. However, the head coach is… well, yum. O_o I’m sorry but he is and I don’t care if that’s weird. Also, everyone there was like so big and so tall compared to me (And I'm not exactly short) so it was a little intimidating. Well, I was shockingly disappointed within a few moments…

“Ms. You got black pants?”

“These ARE black…”

“Go to the Salvation Army and buy some black pants or you can’t work.”

WOW.

I’ll have you know… people were wearing jeans! And my pants were totally black! So there started an adventure to… Woo! The Salvation Army! And I will never wear those black pants again in my entire life. Then they gave me a hassle about not being allowed to bring bags to work so the workers really started getting on my nerves. We started making food and soon enough we were handing out hotdogs and other crap. BELIEVE ME IT'S CRAP. Never eat concession food again! NASTY! I almost puked. And it was sooooo hot! And we got sooooo dirty (I don’t usually mind dirty but I felt gross in what I was wearing already). And it was boring! To top it all off, I swear the football players hardly even worked. I was doing everything (P.S. it’s not even my football team). Now I’m not saying I’m not a cheerful volunteer, but dude. It was a bad setting. Long story short, we stood next to trash on the way out that smelt so bad I could pass out, walked next to smokers for a good half hour (in that time I still hadn't unplugged my nose from the trash so i wasn't breathing properly for a good couple hours (including gasping for breath in the hot kitchen)), I got home, ate another bad cut of meat JUST like yesterday, got sick, tried to fix my fried hair (from working in the hot kitchen all day) with deep conditioner, and problems got worse with my friends. Yay!

And now I would like to dedicate a paragraph to me rambling on about friends who let you go then come back for more and repeat the cycle over and over and over giving the constant “I’m sorry it won’t happen again” message (Taylor Swift – You’re Not Sorry is what I’m thinking of). And yes, once again I found myself browsing the internet for quotes about how I’m feeling and listening to those sad and I’m so mad kind of songs. Hate the feeling, love the inspiration. For the sake of this blog (and as you may have noticed before) I don’t go into a lot of background and detail with things I’m going through, but I simply stick to the emotions. Here goes:

Don’t tell me how wonderful your new best friend is. Don’t tell me how life is so amazing now. You told me that if things weren’t different then I could leave, so show me the door, girl. Show me the door. “Drama’s for movies, not reality.” Now if you’re going to get mad at me for your hypocritical actions then talk to the wrist, because you’re officially dissed. I gave you 2, 3, 4, a thousand chances and you still blow it. Go ahead and tell all of “our” friends! “Haters are going to hate, baby.” And don’t act like I’m the bad guy here who just lost you because you didn’t even have me as a friend for a while now.

“Sweetie, if you’re going to be two-faced at least make one of them pretty :).”

“When people you don’t even know hate you, you know you’re the best. <3”

“No more games, no more drama. When you want to be real, give me a holla.”

“Lately I have to watch what I say. You take things personal nowadays. You used to laugh and now you get mad… dang I want my best friend back.”

“The more friends you have, the more problems there will be, because everyone that’s a part of your life talks crap when you can’t see.”

“Friendship isn’t about whom you have known the longest. It’s about who came and never left your side.”

RANDOM QUOTE: … - Anonymous

RANDOM ICON:

-Sydney

It Got Me Thinking...

Hey Everyone.
So, I started reading this book called "Odd Girl Out" by Rachel Simmons and it got me thinking about just how mean girls can be...but, yet that passive agressive behavior is often overlooked especially when it's mixed in with the physical agression typicaly seen from boys. This is something I often find myself thinking about especially now with high school. Not to often, but often enough, I'll find myself in the middle of a conversation that's completely gossip. Yeah I'll admit it, sometimes it's fun to vent to a friend about how much you hate this one teacher, or this peer that just won't stop doing something that's totally frustrating you, or about that one time when your sibling made you want to kill them....but, quite often, that 'vent' session will turn into gossip and before you can do anything to stop it, the conversation topics spread to just about everyone and almost always leave a victim. I would know..trust me.
At anyrate, I get that it can be fun to gossip a little bit with friends at lunch, before/after school, or on the weekends...but, I just hate how in those moments when I do find myself laughing at a mean joke that's been made and realize that I'm NOT just laughing along with everyone else to fit in..but, that I truly did find something funny in what was being said about that person or group of people. It's frustrating to me when other students gossip and when I find myself in a 'gossip session' because of the lack of self-confidence that I have in myself to be able to stan up to my friends or any other group of people talking about someone else behind their back and spreading rumors. Don't get me wrong, I do realize that a lot of times the rumors start out as truths...but, through exageration and the rush people get from being in the 'know' about who did what, where, and how....it will quite fast become a rumor and completely untrue. It's kinda like that game called telephone that we all played as kids...where one person would start with a word, it would be passed around the circle of people through whispering in ears, and by the end wouldn't be at all what the initial word was. Things happen that skew the truth and change the meaning of something that was said or that happened. That's part of the passive agression that teen girls become part of.
I don't know where exactly I stand when it comes to gossip because on one hand I know I'm totally against it...but, the I realize that I have inded been part of the problem of gossiping with friends, and I feel like a hypocrite saying that I'm totally against it 100%. On the other hand, I realize how mean and problematic it is, and that makes me think that it's okay to take that initial stand because of my UNDERSTANDING of it and how I try my very best to not get involved with those conversations...even though it's sometimes unavoidable. And lets be honest here, who doesn't want to be in the 'know' when it comes to all of the latest happenings regarding school life, teachers, peers, etc... I know I sure want to be.
It's such a hard topic, because we all find ourselves (yes, boys included) gossiping about someone else at one point or another...even if we don't want to actually admit that...but, at the same time everyone who's ever been 'targeted' and has experienced the emotional pain/what it does to your self esteem will understand why it's such a major problem.
I feel like for girls especially it's difficult because of how girls as a whole will use ways such as gossip to passively 'attack' someone they don't like...with their target usually being another peer that's female. One of the hardest parts about gossip is the fact that you never really know WHO started the rumor, and in a sense it creates a 'break' in your sense of security with your peers and you find that you can't fully trust anyone. That's the worst feeling to have when you wake up every morning knowing you're going to go spend the day at school with all of those people.
I'm not really sure where I wanted to go with this post...but this is just something that the book got me really thinking about again. So, I thought, why not make a post about it?
Sorry if it's a bit rambly or hard to follow of my thoughts...I just wanted to get my ideas/thoughts written down.
Thanks for reading! :)
-Sadie

Here's a quote from "Odd Girl Out" to end with:
"Within the hidden culture of agression, girls fight with body language and relationships instead of fists and knives. In this world, friendship is a weapon, and the sting of a shout pales in comparison to a day of someone's silence. There is no gesture more devastating than the back turning away."
(Simmons, pg. 3)

Summer 2011

Hi everyone,

So, for me summer is coming to a close. I have just over 10 days left...and I know it's going to fly by soo fast. :( I find it strange how school always seems to creep up on me and ALWAYS towards the end of summer I realize just how much I still had planned to do slash..still have to do before summer officially ends. It's quite a scary thought to think about not having enough time to finish everything, but I guess that's part of the feeling the end of summer is supposed to give you; you're supposed to feel sad it's over but at the same time, look forward to the 1st week..okay, maybe day...of school where you get to see friends and find out which teachers you have and who has classes with you!! Registration is always the day when I reflect on my summer..in a sense. and since that was today for me, I guess this blog post is right on time...ya know? :)

This summer has had it's ups and downs....as any time period would. Probably my favorite summer 2011 memory will have been SeaCamp, although just overall not having the stress of school/homework/tests was definitely fantastic as well :) The 'low' of my summer would have been family issues, the week when my dog was superrr sick and I was worried he might die, and then obviously the whole friend issue with 'Sara'. I'll start with the lows...
1. family issues...I feel like that's self-explanetory, and I kinda don't want to get into the specifics.
2. My dog being superrr sick...He had a series of 'attacks' where he wasn't able to get enough air and we had to take him to the ER at 1:00 in the morning. It was really scary, and after having to put down a dog just over 2 years ago...I didn't want to have to experience that pain again. especially not with my dog who I love soo much since loosing him would kinda be the equivalent of the world ending...just saying. He means soo much to me. It turned out he had some type of blockage in his stomach and an esophigeal something...but we got medications and did home care to help him get better. <3 So glad he's okay.
3. Friend (or not I guess) Drama...This is mostly explained in the last blog post I wrote.

Now for the fabulous parts of summer: :)



1. ><> SEACAMP!!!!!- Best. thing. ever. Oh my gosh. I love this camp soo much and I'm going to be insanely sad once Senior year starts knowing I won't be able to go there as a camper to the I, II, or III summer sessions. However, there IS a college age trip that I recently found out about..but, I don't know much about that yet. haha. I will have ot look into it. :) But anyways, this is a marine biology camp in San Diego, CA and this summer I did SCII. My favorite part of camp has to have been the night snorkel...even though I almost passed up the opportunity because I was cold and putting on the dreaded wetsuit and then jumping into freezing water didn't seem like it was going to make the situation better...plus, lets be honest. I was kinda freaked out by the idea of jumping into the ocean when it was dark and I wouldn't be able to see more than a few feet infront of my face or around my body (since we were given water flashlights). I made the decision to go though and I"m sooooo glad I did! I would've regretted not going sooo much...although, I probably wouldn't have known what I was missing out on either. It was soooo cool seeing the 'water sparkles'; the squid light and all flashlights were turned off for a period of time once everyone was in the water and you would move your hands back and forth through the water creating movement and there would be little 'sparkles'. What we were seeing was bioluminescense. (A light produced by a chemical reaction that occurs in an organism). We saw dinoflagellates (according to the SC instructors), which are the most common source of bioluminescense. It was soooo cool! I also highly enjoyed the sea lion that was out for a swim and kept circling around my group :) so amazing. So, if it wasn't already obvious; I LOVED the night snorkel :) The seacamp instructors were also fantastic and I loved getting ot know them throughout camp. They were all so friendly and caring; best of all, they knew how to allow for lots of fun while still maintaining a sense of authority, and saftey was def. the number one priority. :)
2. No homework/tests or stress from school...pretty self explanatory :)


SO, overall it has been a great and aa pretty fantastic summer and I'm sad to see it come to a close. 11th grade here we come. I'm incredibly nervous for this year because I've heard it's the difficultest and most challengingist year of high school...whcih I can't imagine will be all that fun with my already present difficutlies in school as is...but, I'm going to try to make the best of it. I'll work through the tough times and it'll be great to know that I have Sydney to help me through along with the blog which will be a good plae to be able to just write it all down. :)

I hope all of you reading the blog (whoever that may be) have had a great summer as well and will have an excellent year of leraning too :)

-Sadie

And here's a quote:
"Our memories of the ocean will linger on, long after our footprints in the sand are gone."

Drama That You'd Never Tell Your Momma

Hey World,

           

            I feel like my last post was a little weird somehow. But here’s another one that you might be able to relate to a little more. I titled it "Drama That You'd Never Tell Your Momma" because if your mom is anything like mine, she just doesn't understand this kind of girl stuff and if you tell her it will be more like an interogation and "YOU NEED TO DO THIS UGH" then a "oh honny I'm sorry" kind of discussion.

It can be hard to avoid drama with your friends sometimes. What I’ve been going through with my friends is much like a jigsaw puzzle. I’ve been going through a similar thing to what Sadie is going through about her friend ignoring her and not wanting to be friends anymore, except multiple friends are against me. It’s like because of one person, everyone turned against me. It was one person who shared everything I told her to all of my friends (while juicing up the story a little) to make it seem like I was a bad person, my best friend, that did this.

I’m just going to talk about a few little things that burst into a really big deal. This isn’t the full story, as you might be able to tell, but I’m focusing on little details that actually made a big impact on our emotions.

Here’s the bottom line, don’t tell your best friends that you think you’re being replaced and then later tell them that you are now spending more time with someone else. That’s what she did to me and it’s just not cool.

I hate how I shared something special with every single one of my friends, whether that be an inside joke, being the first to know each other in a group of friends, a plan to go on vacation together, communication through email unlike everyone else, or a blog like me and Sadie (who is the only person I’ve ever had a blog with :D), and now it’s not special anymore because each friend spoiled the secrets and gave that special something to someone else too. What hurt me a lot was a friend who I was “twins” with. She became “twins” with my other best friend who happened to be the “best friend” that had complained about me replacing her (which I never did by the way. It was just a rumor that was spread, which is another thing I hate about high school and gossip and teens because they are rarely true and totally break everything apart (another main reason why I’m going through what I’m going through is the spreading of rumors)) and then turned many of my friends against me and replaced me in return. Then another friend starts talking to the person they used to hate when I was friends with them because the “hater” hated me and they became best friends (I hope I’m not confusing you too much with all of the people involved). So all my friends turned against me and we have nothing special anymore and my worst enemies are now friends with my ex friends. Now I’m left with just the memory and everyone is ticked off at me. For life.

A while ago I had my 16^th birthday. One of these so called friends of mine had been ignoring me for quite some time, and this person knew it was my birthday because everyone spread the news, yet this person didn’t say happy birthday to me. Go figure. Now I’m not going to complain about a simple happy birthday but even if this person had told me happy birthday, it’s not like I would think they are trying to be friends with me again. It’s just a nice and unexpected thing to do that would have made me feel really good, especially when all of my other so called friends said happy birthday. Besides, birthdays are supposed to be special and full of surprises. But hey, welcome to high school, where it is absolutely impossible to get around without running into someone you know, as you see them in the halls and classroom all the time, making it extremely obvious that you’re being ignored.

There was another friend that had stopped talking to me as well. Months and months and months had passed and then finally she decided to send me a message forward. After that I got another message saying, “sorry I was really bored XD.” How am I supposed to respond to that after such a long time of not speaking to each other? I was extremely hesitant to respond. All I could think of was that she used me as a second choice to talk to when she was “bored” but she couldn’t be there for the past who knows how many days. All of a sudden, after such a long time, if you decide to talk and expect me to open up like we are still the best BESTEST friends ever, I won’t be quite sure what to do. In fact I’ll be speechless. Yes, it’s a fact that time passing does help the healing process, and it takes time to earn trust back once it’s broken, but how can you trust a person you haven’t spoken to for so long? Who knows what happened to them and what they’ve been talking about. What you do is give a little bit of space then start being there for that person and proving you’re trustworthy again, not just completely let that person loose and come back sometime in the future saying, “HIYA BUDDY!”

I know that my friends talk about me, because once in a while I will get a message asking a question about something and I ask why they want to know and they say they were talking about me, but it just hurts being so isolated just because I actually know what’s going on as they are ignoring me. I know exactly what has happened.

Well, if friends can be a jigsaw puzzle, being “more than just in the friend zone” is a hassle. 2000+ years together, and boys and girls still aren’t on the same page. Sigh.

FLASH BACK

On the last day of school, I recall running into a guy who I barely knew. He was one of those guys that you catch their eye one day and then next thing you know you say hi to each other every day but never really talk to. So he said, “hey Sydney,” as usual with those big beaming eyes and a nice smile, yet in that awkward O_O and :D at the same time kind of way (kind of like those moments when you realize you are right next to your crush with that weird, happy, and tense feeling) so that you could tell he was nervous for some reason. I said hi back, but then he did two really strange things. A) He said (in a really hyper RAWR kind of way) “I’m going to hug you,” and B) are you going to be here next year? Well, maybe these aren’t THAT strange but first of all, that is the most awkward way to get a hug in the entire universe.

BOYS LESSON #1: Don’t ask for hugs. You just let it happen in the spur of the moment, especially if you hardly know that person. I mean if they are sad or extremely shy or something you can politely ask, “would you like a hug,” or “can I hug you?” But otherwise it’s just awkward…

Second of all, what’s it to you if I don’t come back? I should have said I wasn’t coming back, because then what? You ask for some way to contact me? I’m sure you’re thinking I’m acting a little weird for him just trying to be friendly, but this particular guy didn’t have a phone, and I didn’t have a facebook, so there was absolutely no way of contact anyways, AND I didn’t know who the heck this guy was. To me he’s a stranger that by some odd chance goes to my school.

Anyways, that same day, another guy told one of my friends that she looked fat in her outfit. How rude.

BOYS LESSON #2: If a girl asks if she looks fat, she either really thinks she might look fat and trusts your opinion, or she wants to know how you think she looks and wants to hear you say, “no you look great.” Many guys have told me that there is no real good answer to this question, but there is. You either A) use BOYS LESSON #3 which I will list in a second, or B) say she looks fine/good/great/beautiful/etc. Whether it’s hard to believe or not, some girls don’t actually know if they should be content with their weight, and some just want to know what YOU think is a perfect weight, so don’t say, “ugh. Why do all skinny girls have to ask if they are fat? They already know they are skinny.” On the other hand, some girls can be a little obsessive and/or needy when they ask these questions so watch out.

BOYS LESSON #3: ALL insults shall be worded as compliments. For example, “I think what you are wearing is nice, but I REALLY loved the outfit you wore the other day.” If you word it like that, cooties to you, respect for you, and we will appreciate it because if there’s one thing I know, girls love hearing your opinions even if it doesn’t seem like it. In fact, many girls search for your opinions.

That’s all that’s on my mind right now about boys though, so tune in for more in upcoming posts!

RANDOM QUOTE: “Life becomes so much better when you decide not to care. Just live in the moment and don’t let the drama bring you down.”

RANDOM ICON:

-Sydney